I am starting to hate the Chopin. Not really. But (in case you haven't noticed) it really bothers me that I can play it with no camera and no audience, but I fall apart when I'm recording. Even if I'm casually talking to the phone like it's a friend. Maybe it's worse when I do that.
Below is a video where it takes me a painful 10 or so minutes to get through the 6-minute nocturne. I stop and complain a few times. I'm not upset in the great scheme of things -- I'm just very, very frustrated that I have put this much work into this piece, and that I know I can play it well ... but no one else will ever know.
I am also baffled as to how people post videos online all the time of their playing this or that piece with no mistakes, or with mistakes that are so small that they're barely noticeable. When I try to record things? I end up with this video, and others like it.
I need to go exercise. A tough workout should help things. Unfortunately, I have to go on a four-hour road trip in about an hour, so no workout for me today. And no piano for the next couple of days.
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